reanimatin the vocabulary

while sayin ‘i love you’ may be the ultimate

sayin ‘i trust you’ requires a hell of a lot more

reflecting on this with raymond daniel-

“sure, dude, love is an instinct

trust must be learned”

or sumthin like that (ray said it a whole lot bettah)

last night at 13, i was exhausted. it had nothin to do wit the show, its just that emotional unbeardening will do dat to ya

i never realized how much of my life is just the canvas of a painting and the rest is the scenes i’ve left behind

(on a semi-related note: i spent sunday morning in the park, collecting leaves in a jouranl while writing and sketching nature shots. people were kind of impressed with the sketches, i may have a new hobby)

love ya like if ya listened without prejudice

cool moment

the cool moment is always rare and too far in between. they are usually marred by saying too much or getting caught with your tongue in a mousetrap. mah favorite cool moments are the ones in ‘Law & Order’ where (usually) the perp says something and then the cops shut ’em up with a flippantr remark or (later in the show) when the smug defendant mouths off to the DA.

here is my cool moment from last night-

ob- do you know where the auditions are?

security- over by that desk.

ob- thanks

sec- hold up, a sec

ob- yeah?

sec- can you tell me what the audition is for?

(ob thinks- nikkah, you work here… why dont you tell ME?)

ob- its for a poetry workshop and performance

sec- oh, ok

ob- yeah

sec- wait up, is it true its for a nude performance?

ob- dude, trust me, you do NOT want to see me naked

and i walk through… money looked quite puzzled, as was i… later on his partner explains that he was fukin wit em and that it was a joke… okey dokey then

and for the curious- i think i bombed the audition but so goes the way of the coin or sumthin

love ya like if i would use a doll and thread mahself for ya in the name of performance art

he pulled a roger clemens*

and tata.is.feature-spotlight



In conjunction with Wanda Ortiz’s installation of Mercury/Mercurio

a reading with be held at the Hostos Art Gallery

featuring Guy LeCharles Gonzalez and Jessica Torres

Wednesday, November 3 @ 6pm

Hostos Community College- E 149th St & Grand Concourse, Bronx

(Take the 2,4,5 Trains to E 149th St Station)

and afterwards

First Wednesdays @ The Blue Ox Bar

Regie Cabico + open mic

man- guy & tata…. wanda’s art… then regie at the ox… mah soul, as the kids say, is QUENCHED!

*guy is SO gonna kill me!

fockers! ya let the rain stop ya!

its cool. a long time ago, i stopped counting when it comes to people who do or dont show up to my stuff.

bottom line- “intimate crowd”… 45 minute performance (was supposed to be 15 but hey thats what havin a repertoire is all about)… martin espada cover… eliel came through and rocked four pieces (thanks, grande!)… rich came through as well (but we didnt have to kill any more time by that point)… crowd bumps up to “friendly space”… michele was beautiful… four love poems- all about the same girl- go figure… car crash right outside the spot- makes for nice fireworks… bruckner grill rocks

love ya like if i walked through a flood for ya